Mood swings of feelings!

Another part of BPD is the intense mood swings of feelings towards people. These drive me mad!! On a bad day I can go from being so in love with my boyfriend and wanting to be really affectionate. To suddenly changing and feeling overwhelmed by it all. The same goes to my close friends, I can go from wanting to spend all day with them to 20 minutes later wanting to be alone.

It’s definitely one of the most tiring symptoms and on bad days leaves me exhausted and confused. 

I find the best way to cope when I have these really intense mood swings is to explain to my boyfriend how I’m feeling. He is so amazing and understands that I can’t help it (I have no idea how I’ve been so lucky with him) and tries his best to make sure I’m comfortable and happy and reassures me everyday that he cares and is there for me. (This makes a massive difference in me being able to cope and I’m forever grateful).

My friends are really great too, they can always spot when I’m having a bad day and give me space but always make sure I know where they are when I’m ready.

I also focus really hard on doing things like drawing and looking at photos to give me a sense of reality and honest feelings. 

I’ve also started keeping a diary and including my feelings. So then when I’m having a day, thinking of all the wrong things. I read it and use it reassure myself that it’s just a bad day and that I do love those close to me!

Mood swings are so frustrating and hard to understand for people around those suffering. But it’s always important to remember how challenging it is for those battling the gremlins in their head.